My boyfriend and I were together for 3 years. I was unhappy with myself because I had gained some weight. I started getting attention from another guy. I broke up with my boyfriend and started hanging out with this new guy. Yes, it's very sad and wrong. When you are unhappy with yourself and you get new attention you start to "feel" better. LOL so I thought.
After a year of an off and on relationship we had a daughter in 2004. We weren't together most of my pregnancy. I was stupid and believed the "I'm sorry, I love you." I lost the weight from my pregnancy. We separated again when our daughter was 6 months. I didn't see or hear from him until we went to court for child support. Again I was stupid and believed the "I'm sorry, I Love You." This went on for 10 years. Within that 10 years we had a son in 2007. Got married and bought a house in 2008, all thanks to my mom (financially). He didn't like to work much.
Through the 10 years of a roller coaster ride of emotional and verbal abuse I lost all my friends. They got tired of hearing I am going to leave him. My family was tired of hearing that stuff to, luckily they stuck around and listened to my cries. Also through this 10 years, I made sure my kids were active. I signed them up for cheerleading and basketball. My daughters cheerleading practice was basically my life. We (daughter and I) would be at the studio for 3-4 hours 4 nights a week. I didn't mind because it kept us away from my "husband". This also meant always eating out. The weight just continues to pack itself on.
In April 2011, I lost my mom (my bestfriend) of a massive heart attack. She lived with us and my son, 3 at the time, is the one who found her. She had been overweight most of her life. I didn't want to leave my kids at such a young age due to being unhealthy. I started going to Bally's. Being unhappy, all it did was help me relieve stress from my relationship. I hardly worked out though, I sat there talking to others for hours just to be away.
After my mom passed away, I decided I didn't want to be unhappy my whole life. I quit my job because I was tired of my husband being allowed to stay home all the time. We both attempted to work for a process serving company. In June 2011 our power got turned off. I knew this was my only way out. The kids and I moved in with my dad and he went to his moms. I would take the kids over there everyday for hours. It was very boring. All they did was smoke and eat. Which resulted in me eating more. In August 2011 I decided I had enough and told him I was done. In October 2011 he chose to stop picking up the kids. In November 2011 I served him with divorce papers.
FINALLY! I was free. Changing my life starting with health and wealth. He made it very hard to do this. BUT, in February 2012 I was finally free and doing so much better.
Now to the good stuff..........Crossfit.
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